Like a lot of women. I am a “doer!” I don’t like to sit idle because it makes me feel useless, inefficient and wasteful. However, over the past six months God has been actively working on my heart. Drawing me closer to Him and opening my eyes to how wonderful it can be to “be still”.
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10
In fact, for the first time in six years I am not going to attend my regular bible study. Instead, I am going to spend every Wednesday morning with my Father in Heaven. Just God and me on my back porch. I am looking forward to soaking in His word and what He desires for me to learn through His word.
“Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the door frames of your houses and on your gates.” Deuteronomy 6:4-9
A relationship with our Lord and Savior should be our ultimate goal in life. We need to seek Him and love Him with our whole being. The question is . . . Is that enough for you? Ask yourself, “If I can accomplish an intimate relationship with God, is it enough?” Or will I feel the need to “do” something with it? We are a society of Martha’s!!! What if I don’t get a ministry, an important project from God, a job that helps me share what I have experienced through God’s love. . . .Is the relationship enough or will I be disappointed?
I had never asked myself this question until last week. I was surprised at my answer. Yes! Yes! It is enough for me. God has given me a content heart. A heart for Him that I pray He continues to fill with His peace, His word and His love for others. This may not seem like much to some, but for me (Mrs. Type A – get it done!) this was a BIG step. It is a relief for me to know that God is enough and if He chooses, at some point, to lead me in another direction for His purpose. . . I know He will be in control and equip me with all I need. Until then, I am looking forward to just hanging out with God on my back porch and getting to know Him better.
“My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?” Psalm 42:2