It had been a long morning and I just wanted to go home and take a nap. I told my daughter on the way home from running errands that I would like to order a thunderstorm for the afternoon because that would be great “nap taking weather”. She replies, “but Mommy, it’s not a restaurant you can order from – it’s God’s thunderstorm. He will send it if He wants to.”
I am certainly guilty of “placing my order” with God instead of prayerfully seeking Him, giving Him control and trusting in His perfect plan. I have learned the hard way more times than I would like to admit. Although I still falter, I am so much better at listening and learning from God. I have a strong desire to seek God’s path for my life. I don’t always understand it, I don’t always like it, and sometimes He certainly thinks more highly of me than I do of myself. It takes a lot of trust and a lot of faith.
It is so difficult to fathom that God has had a plan, His perfect plan, for me since before he knit me in my mother’s womb. In reality, He knows me better than I will ever know myself. Read a little bit of Psalm 139.
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Once again, God spoke to me through my children. The little ones He knit into my womb. I am always amazed at how small children can make such a simple statement and have such a great impact on me. I pray that one day my children will read these stories and understand what an impact they have made on me and my walk with God.